I'm angry today. Angry and frustrated. The agitator of these feelings is the culture clash between my North American upbringing and its immersion with South Korean life.
Trying to navigate cultural differences during a short-term stay overseas can be fun and amusing, but actually living in a country that is so very different from our own can be downright annoying and painstakingly frustrating.
I always believed that traveling to a foreign country for any reason, whether for mission work,
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This is our apartment building. Also, note the Korean taxi. Taxis here are well-kept and clean. |
vacation, or military purposes, was such an enchanting opportunity. Though my husband and I have only been living in South Korea for two and a half months, we've seen and learned A LOT, and not all of it is good. Some of it is. This country is unique, intriguing, and well-worth exploration, but describing the "good stuff" is merely half-or perhaps three-fourths the story. Merely candy-coating the "good stuff" and leaving out the negative would be misleading to our friends and loved ones, so allow me to express some hidden emotion.
The educational system here is brutal. Korean parents want (SO BADLY) for their children to succeed that they insist upon after-school private academies. Selfishly, this is a good thing for foreigners who are given opportunities to live abroad, gain teaching experience, and learn a new culture. However, academies have a negative side, which is the initially disguised academic pressure on these innocent students. I call this "initially disguised," because from the outside, students seem so intelligent, well-behaved, and submissive. The real reason? They're scared to death of driven parents who insist that they MUST excel academically, competitively outscore their peers and get into "the best universities." (At this point, I'm in the dark about Korean universities. I don't know which ones are considered prestigious, nor do I know what makes a university actually "better" than another). The academy where I'm employed is only focused on teaching the English language, but there are others. There are math, science, music, exercise, computer studies, and probably more that I haven't heard.
My teaching schedule is dramatically different from the schools I've previously worked. In American public schools, I had a daily schedule of three to four classes, and those classes met at the exact same time every day. Planning period, or breaks, were always the same. My Korean school schedule is far more complicated.
I teach five classes in a row, with ten minute breaks in between. I have MWF classes, TR classes, a Wednesday/Friday class, a Monday/Wednesday class, and a Monday/Friday class. Also, there's an extra study class I teach one night a week, and occasionally, I'm asked to stay and teach another new, temporary class.
We are expected to arrive by 2 p.m., and can sometimes leave by 8:30 p.m. However, my foreign co-workers and I often stay until 9 or 9:30 p.m., doing whatever task the school's leaders have asked us to do. This work isn't DIFFICULT, but it can be tedious, and when you're new at it, you feel like you're going insane. I've been here just over two months, yet trying to understand Korean culture, and moreover, their WORKPLACE culture, is puzzling. We have multiple meetings throughout the week, which is quite different from my American experience of brief, monthly meetings which have the attitude of, "don't worry, we won't keep you here long, but as professionals, we must meet. Yeah, we can all agree that we'd rather get this thing done so we can go home, grade those papers and/or walk the dog."
When new classes begin, parents have to purchase textbooks for their children. Most of the textbooks we use have a corresponding "workbook," and sometimes, a "test book." So, this means one class may use three separate books. If new students show up without these necessary supplies, teachers are required to make photocopies of all these books, staple them neatly, and hand them to the student. Since Korean schools, businesses, and overall culture are/is generally very appearance-driven, they expect teachers to make GOOD copies. No grainy, overly-inked or smudgy copies allowed. If you rush and make faulty copies, you will be called out for it. You'll be called out for it not because you're a bad teacher, but because making poor copies is considered disrespectful to the parents, who are paying money for their child to attend the school.
So anyway, I'm angry. I'm angry that new things are always so hard. I'm angry that so many things are beyond my control. I'm angry that so many South Korean students are trained to believe that their self-worth will be lessened if they don't STUDY, STUDY, STUDY. I'm angry that one of my sweet little students, who, with earnest, serious eyes, tells me she cannot complete all the reading required in my class because she goes to so many other academies and can barely keep up with all the rigor. I'm angry that I don't have all the answers. I feel guilty about the fact that, as both a student and a teacher, I've apparently always had more free time than realized. No creative concluding sentence needed. This is how I feel today.